priorities

I will spend more time finding the "right" tools to do a job than just doing the job. I just spent 37 minutes researching the a blogger app so that I can blog when not in front of my computer. When I was sitting IN FRONT OF MY COMPUTER, with my blog page OPEN.

But it's all about the accessories. I have become obsessed about having the "right" apps on my phone just like I can also obsess over having the right shoes or bag for an outfit. It all comes down to the details. And really, how often do I post pictures on my blog. um...NEVER. except for my photo blog, but I've already downloaded an app that can post pictures from my iphone onto that blog. so i don't need that perk, yet I obsess on it. Because I have to have the best. Because I have to get the Monolo's not the heels from nine west.

And really, who is every going to see what blogger app I am *not* using on my iphone (because my blogging is sporadic at best, and always done on my laptop - Macbook Pro, ofcourse). So I might as well spend that cash on something that really matters. Like those Louboutins I've been craving.

running

my daughter has just started training with the cross country team. She loves it. I watch her running laps across a field, pony tail flying behind her, little legs pumping and sheer determination to be first in the group flashes across her face.

When she runs I see my mother. I see her running, feeling free, her whole life ahead of her. Nothing can stop her except herself.

And I know how one story ends. waiting for the best to come last, and dying before she can even get there.

And I wonder how my daughter's life will play out. I want her to not wait. don't hesitate. don't settle. our time is too short. keep running. you're free.